A little background, I grew up in Nebraska in a single-parent household with five other siblings. Our mom worked a lot, however we still lived below the poverty line. We never attended church, yet still our mother instilled in us to have some reverence for God. 

I was in my early 20’s when I first started seeking God for myself. I always knew God was real but I didn’t have a relationship with him personally and I certainly didn’t know what the bible said, nor did I know how to live right. I have lived around hypocritical people all my life. It taught me how to put on a good face despite how miserable I felt on the inside, but I assumed after time that was the only way to feel. I thought I had to seek outside “things” to feel good, like alcohol, friendships, buying things, vacations, having a male companion or having children to make me happy.

I started out doing just that and after getting married, buying a house, a new car, having my first child, and vacationing I still felt empty and a little lost. Always wanted to do what was right but had no idea what “right” really was. Then one day, I found myself crying in my room and started to talk to God, or at that time, the only God I knew.

I started to ask God to show me what life is really all about and how can I feel his comfort. I wanted to know how to be a good person, mother, and wife. What was he expecting from me to achieve this understanding to not feel so sad and lost?

After that, I started my journey of seeking God to find out what he required or wanted from me to find true balance and peace in my life. It was a few months later, after trying several different churches and denominations that I found Apostolic Church of Truth. Pastor Sweets and Elect Lady Caroline and their 4 children were really the only members at the time besides a few people that came and went. I will always remember thinking God can not be here with such a small congregation. That was the first time God showed me some of the answers I had been looking for and that his ways are far above my thinking. When I truly allowed God to open his revelation to me it was like flowing waters. He started to teach me about repentance and change. About accepting what God has already established in his word, applying it to my life, and seeing the change that it makes in every way I think, feel, and believe. The process of learning the truth and learning how to be honest has been life-changing for me. I was hooked and love God so much and want to please him.  

He continues to be faithful and over the last 23 years, he has kept his promise to me. Through all the ups and downs he continues to comfort and teach me how to handle all life issues I need to go through to work out all my thoughts, opinions, and feelings that are contrary to Him, so I can be more like him and one day I hope to meet him in peace.